Babe, No one is to blame! As natural as the rain, here comes the flood again..

So many thoughts, images, tastes, smells and feels rush through me that I become over whelmed by the absolute density that life holds, its un-explainable how I feel in these moments and only those who have witnessed me going through this can grasp exactly what I am talking about.

I'm beginning to hate myself (again). But I think everyone comes and goes with the undeniable truth or rather lie that they are not what they should be, I really struggle with the conceptualization of the reality that is given me in periods where I begin to question my person. My life begins to re-birth in flame and as I implode on the basis of my truths or rather lie's life starts to personify in joyful song that I am who I want to be and who I am becoming, I believe this is due to the fact that I know Christ and all that is promised me.

I get really annoyed by stupidity. I recently encountered someone who would rather walk from Catford to Forest Hill than take a bus - From my understanding that is stupid beyond the point of stupidity. Worse for ware the child actually did fit my description of his acne faced persona, which is another thing I struggle deeply with, I hate myself for being able to tell a story from someone's face alone. I'm sick of my intellect or rather sick of it never being satisfied. ( No theology wont satisfy me, only God will ).

Another stupid thing I heard this week was that 70% of the worlds population are white, Who'da thought eh?

Help me.

Yours truly.