Last cigarette, Bitter wine and the early morning chorus.

Yeah, Went and had my last ciggy this weekend. This whole I'm quitting thing isint a new thing for me but hey I was able to quit WoW this narcotic addiction to nicotine will be nothing to over come. Spent most of the weekend with a few close friends,

many finishing their A2's and preparing for distant lands in the coming September and others

just looking for work to do over the summer. Hasnt been much to say other than this as it has

been a good ol week. On Saturday morning I held the world record on cs:s making me the

sadest person on the planet for just over 5 hours (: but what can you do bro?

Will leave you with this, Intend to type next week just in a rush right now (:

- Mitch

Celebrate don't wait to late!

You can't stop ahhhhh we're going to celebrate one more time!

The best song for all occasions I would say!

Truth is I run with a pack, My days of being a lone wolf have come to an end, I have found my home among the way ward leaders of different cliques that circulate around the world.

I am at peace with everything, Although needing some what more of my father in heaven. - It would be a pleasure to hear a response on this blog as again I will state that out of the majority of people who have started a blog I can say that I was the first :} Feeling re-born within Christ this weekend I have prepared myself to state this few things:

- I am a christian and am honored to be one

- I am a 5th generational christian

- I am a gamer with the most amazing compadre's yo~

- I love my church.

- My friends are my family.

I am a pirate yarrrRRRRRrrRR

peace xo

Tl;dr

So its basically exciting isint it?

I have come to this point in my life where I know what I want and I want it now.

Its been surprising personally to have come to the understanding that very few people who would be considered leaders among my peers no near nothing of me, This is actually set about a real sense of frustration as they are easy to speak with ignorance dripping from their words, This will and always manifested resentment within society. I ask alot of questions so not to be ignorant.

Truthfully I can say that I am Ok with who am I am in a greater sense. This calmness is due to the realization that who I am is nothing compared to who I am in christ.

A short rant, I will be posting another post this weekend - I have nothing much within the context of this post to add so..

Until tomorrow

Nostalgia

So yeah the world cup is finally being played out and I cant help but feel I'm missing out on something amazing. Sitting on my couch just isint how I would have wanted to spend my time watching the games, So I might be heading out to South Africa in the coming days.

So yeah, I was kicked out of Croydon College due to my own stupidity. This is not a new feeling by any means, I mean like... This point is the point at which I have come just short of what I had aimed for.

So yeah.. Running away to South Africa is the only escape left to me now, Maybe I will return less broken than I am now. Trying to put a brave face on and all but I honestly cant face the people who put their love,hope and trust in me. And even in gracious comforting I know deep down that I just blew my chance, My last chance. Nothing is ever going to come easy again. But hey thats how I've always learnt. Or maybe I am just not deserving.

So yeah. My faith is shaken. My resolve and conviction in God is questionable in the current flow of things. I've lost my fire. I am cold. How many of you can actually say you stare up at the ceiling and knowing the blood that runs through your veins is meant for so much more? Even more so knowing that you just need to reach out and take it. Maybe I enjoy the thought more than actually doing it, Im certainly not afraid of success or hard work, In actuality Im rather encouraged by a up hill struggle.

So yeah, My friends are all witness to the end of the year and where its taken them, I am honoured to have seen the paths they have all chosen to walk and will continue to support them in reaching their stars.

I know Im going to get there one day, I know Im going to rock your worlds, I know I cant die until I am ready too. So yeah.

Cure for the itch.

For all this, there is one thing you should know! I put my trust in you.

So I do this thing sometimes, this thing where I completely re-think everything that is not concrete with who I am at any specific time. The fundamental truth is that I have no truths in my life and have this urgency in creating them. Oh no I lied. I have 2 truths in which I believe. Those who know me should have a pretty good pre-understanding of what they are and for those who don't you clearly have to get to know me more or stop reading my blog (:

So yeah at this present time Im basing myself situationally to fully satisfy my desirable attitude towards life. God has given me blunt answers into what would keep me whole but the hunger I manage to pick up for the addictive nature of what keeps me full never seems to be dismissed and never complete in what I am searching for. I do not desire truth or love, hell I don't even measure freedom as my priority, I feel what I am after is a little out of my grasp as I have yet to fully understand the complete picture to it as it something that is always mentioned but seems evasive ( to me anyway ).

Damn I bet this has got you intrigued? Oh well :DD

I wonder how I'll manage the world Im going to be stepping out too in a few hours and how the world will re-act to a more idealistic version of the dreamer who will never stop until reality proves itself worthy.

But do not mistake me for one of those questioning teenagers for I have found the only truth worth finding through years of denial, more so think of me as a friend who refuses to accept societies logic and ways of deciphering sense as I see the world as a place in which the occupants have in denial reached their peak and pushed to reach a higher conclusion.

Try and have a good day with a smile creeping from point to point.

Just know that I am struggling and if you have continued to read until this point have become a friend which is certain to be challenged by those defiant, But let me re-assure your mind that you continued to read after I said don't unless you want to know me :P, But yeah I am struggling with wether I love my friends because of who they are or because they are human. ( possibly both cuse a few of dem are hot ) - Mitch (:

Drunks, Lovers, Sinners and Saints.

This next post is going to come across rather bias which would only leave any reader with the understanding that is an arrogant wall of text. However I today realized that as a person I've gone through some of the most un-wanted situations.

Ever grown up with a certain idealism? Or more so a defined dream in which you want to achieve before your time on this earth is done?, The dreams I've had have all been achieved and yes that sounds all very amazing. But my walk until this point was difficult and very very very challenging on myself and those around me. Thanks to my father in heaven I got there. Now in here lies my problem.. I have my dream but the struggle is now to protect the things I have gained, And I find myself slipping further away from my understanding of who I am just trying to protect them. Or rather myself in Christ. Who is like God?

Maybe one day I will understand by the road I walk.

But yeah, Im proud of what I've come through and no-one can hold me to ransom for that.

Mitch (:

The morning and evening star.

HOLLA

so its Jesse's birthday today, so man have a great one n thanks for teaching me a couple life lessons and explaining how 1+1=2.

This week has been something spectacular to say the least. Caught between a rock n a hard place.

Currently sitting here preparing myself for a day of complete coursework doing :D.

Started the week showing a friend the non tourist side of London which brought back my passion for being the man I'd always wanted to be. My faith has increased recently with season of down time I've felt that I can keep consistent with my faith and always have that urge to want God around even when I have enough. Actually God spoke to me and said something along those lines.

Went to the big church day out UK and faced my own cross head on, not alone though had my dear friends n Christ with me and have over come them. Um yeah naught much more to say that wouldnt give away to much as I do like being mysterious :)

Um yeah have a great half-term y'all n catch you all when ya back n kicking. GET REFRESSHEDED.

- Mitch