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" One night doesnt make the rest of my life "

Is what i woke up to this morning, I must say i disagree completely with that quote.

Last night God has shown me how faithful he is to those who follow him. After a few years of waiting my militant christian side finally found itself in a place where the presence of the enemy was overwhelming, Breaking strong holds coming out of hiding it was a great honor to be apart of the work the lord is doing here in Sydenham and certainly a honor to see my dreams come to light.

We are on the move to claim what is rightfully the lords so watch out ;)

Explanations to why I have come across so hostile this last week; basically I have manic depressive times in my life, so far to my own knowledge im not bi-polar but will be being tested as soon as possible. Ive gone through a period of un-matched pressure and stress, and not being able to handle it as well as i thought i could i ended up hurting a few friends and myself. And for this I would like to make a open apology to everyone I have offended, But I will continue to say that in all seriousness the things said where not lies, and really hope that your eyes open to what I have said. - Your words opened mine.

College is going well, they fully understand my awkward situation and have offered me a way to achieve the year with a smile on my face. lets get this work started :DD

To all who are leaving in the coming weeks for UNI and other things I just wanted to say you will never be forgotten but sorely missed.

Love y'all x

People;

Alright, Its taken me near 2 weeks to finally be able to word this correctly so here it comes;

Im under alot of self induced pressure to achieve to be able to protect and to love.

Education has never been my forte, Everyone who knows me specifically in this area will know that I learn quickly but do so to quickly. Im facing the biggest challenge in my life this week and no-one other than God is capable of aiding me in this. My "superior intellect" means nothing this is a case of obedience and capability.

Over this is the simple yet another thing that has seemingly avoided me through my entire life, This is going to be stupid sounding but, I have never truly found a stable group of friends who I can mature with side by side. Ive always been one step ahead or two behind. My currect circulation of friends are a bunch of wet blankets to say bluntly. I have this ability to attract people to me and people are intrigued by this and so become my friends. However my friends will NEVER EVER truly befriend each other. I have friends aging from 11-29 within this group which in terms of "grouping" makes it difficult but I can clearly see family within them. I lie to myself saying " Mitch You will always have this group to come back too", The truth is far from this. They can hardly keep in contact with each other and become dependent on me to do so. So there you have it, Im the guy who truly has the friends ive always wanted but am truly alone in the group. it makes me think depressing and sad thoughts. If i where to get into trouble they would all turn up 1 by 1 and never as a group to protect what we treasure as a collective.

So fighting my biggest battle with dickheads behind me, no wonder i keep falling eh? not playing the blame game I know I could do more, but if you guys would actually put aside your arrogance in WHO you are then step up or stand aside. Thanks guys. Your dependency is driving me insane. Go pray or something. and what i mean by "chill" is to chill together, But this is an evasive concept isint it?

In Gods mercy I will fight this battle and I will stand resolute in the fact in God I will over come all mountains that lay before me.

Bring your battles, My wars already won.

Starting Again.

Born into the freedom of a nation yo.

Basically since last i posted i have been physically unable to produce anything other than blood n flem.

But im back now n im back good.

I have the blood of the East and West I have the South as home and North as home.

Man God is good n im not running backwards. I was born to fight.

Also to all my friends. ( yes anyone who reads this )

- Would you please understand that word. FRIEND.

Stop spouting stupid nonsense.

Im not trying to be the judge n say whats right or wrong BUT what your saying is not correct in any context.

off to college x

Final destination;

Your a disgrace you lied to my face, the truth be told i always knew but couldnt care less i had always loved you. I sit here now broken with a frown, like king i fell from a horse and lost my crown.

Anger at what you said it'd be better for me to be dead, This moment time i stand alone like before i knew what it was to be in that friendship zone. proud of who i am, was and to be you cant that from me never again will i make that mistake, i will forsake the vow we made that stupid manifesto was just another excuse to feel alive, have that drive.

alone again huh?

trust means nothing to other people. Give me more with friends with stronger conviction and resolve father.. I hate being alone in a crowded room.

Seriously SHUT THE FUCK UP. - My business is my own the truth will come to light but atleast have the respect to let me confess what I have done.

Want to know why im angry? Your consistent bull is what angers me. God has so much for you focus yourself onto that and leave me alone. Dont call me a friend if you wont treat me like one.

- Mitch :DD

yo!

HOLLA!

Father!

I must say Jesus is truly amazing.

Alright I have had the most eventful week of my life to date.

Lets start off from the beginning, Firstly I began the week really hostile n angry wanting to fight, drink and smoke alot of weed. ( I didn't ) It started on Saturday when I was asked to attend "Sound" hesitant I went anyway expecting a box out with God, Thats exactly what I got. Feeling furious by the situation I stormed out of the event where I ended up beating up a wall, bruised and weary I came home heavy hearted with the same question which ignited this entire fiasco, " You promised me that this was the time I would break through, You put me in place. Father why have you forsaken me? ".

Sunday came along and again I wasnt to keen on attending Church where a close friend was going to part take in the baptisms, trotting along with an all to fake smile I then took out my frustration by running around and kicking a ball as hard as possible. Still no answer from God.

Feeling more disappointed with myself I then attended a worship session with a few older members from the church. Where I thre my question out to God. " WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME " - Feeling really over come and empty I went to bed upset a second night.

Waking on the Monday I burst into tears with the sudden understanding of how broken I had become, shortly after my crying I opened up to what is one of my favorite bits of the bible. Only to be interrupted by a phone call at which I found out ( WAIT FOR IT ) that my place at Croydon college had never been withdrawn and that I was to start attending again. Within that period of time i turned my praises unto God who'm quickly replied " idiot Im always here ".

God has firmly stood with me and is opening some of the doors in which to enable my vision or my "dream" of being me.

Thats just one of the few things he has done this week.

So yep Im back at college and I have one month to complete 21 assignments (: - JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT. - please pray for me it would be a big help.

Have an amazing day guys xoxo

- Mitch

Democracy is something boys die for.

This week has been an odd one but satisfaction has not been a stranger to me during this time.

A young boy was beaten to death in the local area which has been excused as a gang fight. Growing up in the area I can only possibly say that this is not far from the truth but is not the entire truth, Gangs in this area don't beat on people within the same post code period. The truth is this boys face was one I've seen on the special occasion when walking around my local high street and down to the lower end of my town, although the last time is without question the last. I give my condolences to his family and to his recent girl friend, may they find peace in the near future.

I voted yesterday.

As the UK changes government I cant help but feel an anxiousness shroud the future of this country has wrapped itself in. Intrigued I feel this is the beginning of something amusing for myself as if I have prepared for this moment my whole life. Gods people are about to move and I for one will refuse to spectate what is about to happen.

Oh yeah thanks to a old friend alias SMiGGEH who has helped my first ever youtube video reach near 500 views. Although this doesnt excuse the fact that he is the biggest dickhead only second to his homosexual counterpart MT.

I should have a nobel peace prize man. I single handedly stopped 4/7chan members from leaving most of a gaming forum in tatters. People should really be aware of who they intend to laugh at before leaving insult.

Have a good one (: - Mitch, Oh yeah call me narwhal (: