People;

Alright, Its taken me near 2 weeks to finally be able to word this correctly so here it comes;

Im under alot of self induced pressure to achieve to be able to protect and to love.

Education has never been my forte, Everyone who knows me specifically in this area will know that I learn quickly but do so to quickly. Im facing the biggest challenge in my life this week and no-one other than God is capable of aiding me in this. My "superior intellect" means nothing this is a case of obedience and capability.

Over this is the simple yet another thing that has seemingly avoided me through my entire life, This is going to be stupid sounding but, I have never truly found a stable group of friends who I can mature with side by side. Ive always been one step ahead or two behind. My currect circulation of friends are a bunch of wet blankets to say bluntly. I have this ability to attract people to me and people are intrigued by this and so become my friends. However my friends will NEVER EVER truly befriend each other. I have friends aging from 11-29 within this group which in terms of "grouping" makes it difficult but I can clearly see family within them. I lie to myself saying " Mitch You will always have this group to come back too", The truth is far from this. They can hardly keep in contact with each other and become dependent on me to do so. So there you have it, Im the guy who truly has the friends ive always wanted but am truly alone in the group. it makes me think depressing and sad thoughts. If i where to get into trouble they would all turn up 1 by 1 and never as a group to protect what we treasure as a collective.

So fighting my biggest battle with dickheads behind me, no wonder i keep falling eh? not playing the blame game I know I could do more, but if you guys would actually put aside your arrogance in WHO you are then step up or stand aside. Thanks guys. Your dependency is driving me insane. Go pray or something. and what i mean by "chill" is to chill together, But this is an evasive concept isint it?

In Gods mercy I will fight this battle and I will stand resolute in the fact in God I will over come all mountains that lay before me.

Bring your battles, My wars already won.