Brother's and Sister's

Why, Why now? why do I feel so envious.. Envious of a past self.
I used to rule this world and stood on the summit viewing what was to one day be mine, I dream it still. THEN WHY IS IT I FEEL SO UN-EXPERIENCED. Why isit that I torture my heart by looking through endless photo's of those close to me and there God damn adventures while knowing full well mine will never be shown.

I feel so trapped in ignorance, I feel so helpless, I feel so hopeless I feel so forgotten by a God who promised, Who promised me. Why is it when I ask I receive in seed and not in fruit? Why is it that you know best? why why why why!!

A wordly man that lost his world..

I've done nothing, I've seen nothing, I do nothing, I am becoming nothing. A nothing that feels so comfortable to my soul, A desire I used to call on when all else was dark and in my sorrow capture it and bind it to my open wounds only to remind me that I am the nothingness of a mere joke. The storms coming and I am fearful that I have forgotten who I am. I am lonely. I am lost in apathy and I have forgotten all. My hea

help.